You know how it is in those moments right before you make the right decision. It is usually a hard decision, a life changing decision. I spent so many nights tossing and turning, so many hours over thinking, and then finally decide it's time to give it up. I know all I need is faith of a mustard seed to see God move mountains. I feel like you must need a magnifying glass to even see my mustard seed today. I am so grateful that my faith is not measured in God's eyes. Today we sent in our application for our home study. All the unknowns in this process(especially the finances) lead me to many sleepless night! Since when did worrying ever add a day to anyone's life? I am choosing to look up and let go of all my fears. I am so excited to see how God will work to bring home the little girl He has chosen for our family, in His perfect timing.
This past week while I was on a short run I kept asking for clarity from Him. As I watched my feet hit the ground I realized I am staring right in front of me, at the cement that is just the right shade of gray to blind me from the beauty that lies around me. As I 'looked up' at the bigger picture everything was so much clearer. It makes me realize that each day I need to look up to see the clarity of God's amazing plan for His children, it's not about me, it's so much bigger than me. In that truth I know I can sleep well.
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